June 2011
May 2011
“I was only photographing in words the reality of it all.”
– Betting on the Muse - Charles Bukowski (via henrycharlesbukowski)
day twenty five- 10 ways to win my heart
-knows literary characters
-watches the office
-smart
-into punk
-sends me love notes
actually scratch all of the above I’ll fall for you if you even look at me so….theres that
Justin & Selena:
Me:
Too funny to not reblog.
OMG XD
-sorry asked: heyy idk what ur up to or if you're even home but if you are would u wanna walk down to the beach and smoke some weed and talk about our lives or somethin g idk
day twenty four- things you want to say to five different people
Him: “I really like you a lot and I want you to like me back. Lets just have the summer together okay?”
Her: “I’m really sorry for that a year ago I’m so sorry I know how much it must have hurt you and I didn’t mean it like that. I was a self destructive idiot who wasn’t thinking anything...
day twenty one- something you can’t seem to get over
many things. I hold onto things, not grudges so much as things that I just can’t seem to move past. Experiences.
day twenty- the last argument you had
my mom, just now because she’s always guilting me into doing things and making me feel bad and I snapped.
day nineteen- something that never fails to make you feel better
Sam, my best friend. When he makes me milkshakes, and makes me laugh harder than anybody ever could. Him and Harry Potter, pretty much.
day eighteen- disrespecting parents
I don’t do that a lot actually. I used to lie to them about drinking and smoking but now I’m open with them. Whats the point of lying? My parents are different than most though.
day seventeen- things that make you scared
everything. the ocean, the dark. But mostly just being alone. I’m so scared of the future and that I’ll always feel as alone as I do now.
day sixteen-three things you are proud of about your personality
I’m proud of the way I think, that it’s deeper than most (so I believe) my mom and dad and my aunts and my uncles all the adults in my life have always told me I’m beyond my years. I believe them, I guess. I’m proud of the things I say sometimes that are sort of funny, I like to shock people or make them...
day fifteen- the best thing that happened to you this week
technically the week just started but last week the day he texted me on monday in chem and I wasn’t expecting it all because I almost always expect it. it made my heart grow warm. It’s the little things.
day fourteen- something disgusting you do
I don’t know. I think about things too much.
day thirteen- a date you would love to go on
it actually doesn’t really matter to me. His car. Under the stars. Maybe somewhere in public where everyone can see us. Somewhere in private so that no one can see us. my bed, my sheets. Oh goodness I want that more than anything.
day twelve- things you want to say to an ex
lol what ex
day eleven- talk about your relationship or if single single life
single life is fun freeing and lonely. Loneliness trumps all the rest. It’s awful to feel unloveable, like your the only person in the whole world and to watch all the rest of your friends who are in relationships, it’s hard. To be in the situation that I am in, to like a boy talk to a boy and just keep wondering if he...
day ten- your views on drugs and alcohol
How I love them so
day nine-my last kiss
I think it was in a southdown parking lot with a boy I sort of regret because it was out of spite that I kissed him. It was purely sexual even though it was good kissing. I don’t want to go into too much detail here but just that I wish it was a different boy. I miss kissing that other boy.
day eight- something you’re currently worrying about
one thing? Because I can list the world for you.
I’m worrying about the classes I’m failing and the homework I didn’t do and my SAT scores that are low. The job I just started. The boy that may not like me back, that I ran out of time with completely. The fact that my social life sucks, that I am invisible. That one of...
day seven- your opinion on cheating on people
Well, nothing is black and white. Cheating is bad. You shouldn’t do it. But life isn’t always planned, and people fall in and out of love and do things that are stupid and get drunk and there are circumstances and such. Sometimes things just happen and doesn’t mean that we’re bad people it just means that life happens....
day six- the person that you like and why you like them
Well, I’m not an idiot. I’m not going to post who I like on the internet but I can tell you why I like them. He’s tall and he’s strong and he’s sweet and he gets this innocent look when he smiles. He’s got these beautiful strong hands and arms. I can’t really tell you why I like him exactly, but...
day five-five things that annoy you about the opposite sex
creepiness, superiority, I actually have no idea its sort of specific to the person
day four-what you wear to bed
Sweats or underwear.
day three- what kind of person attracts you
I’ve found I like tall boys. Boys in leather jackets boys with pasts who can talk to me like I’m a real person and not just see me for my outsides. I like boys that smell of smoke and memories with deep voices and scruff on their chin. Boys that care but don’t care, broken souls. I’m attracted to muscles deep voices heavy...
day two- how have you changed in the past two years
I have changed completely. I started out a small fourteen year old entering high school whole and ending up broken with a broken family and broken spirit. I started drinking, started smoking, started shedding innocence and now I’m not so innocent anymore and I can’t go back. I can never go back to what I used to be. I’m sadder...
day one-weird things you do when you’re alone
I pick at myself mostly, that sounds gross but what can you do. I cry also, a lot.
“You know what sucks? Realizing what you believe is in complete and utter...”
– 500 Days of Summer (via dollfacemachine)
