deardiary my teenage bullshit now has a body count

suicideunderground:

xdarkling:clotilde-:illbehereforever:(via fadedsilhouettes)

I get a coffee and the paper, have my own conversations

with the sidewalk and the pidgeons and my window reflection

nostalgicdreams:

cicconeyouthh:

Oh, the alcoholic afternoons
When we sat in your rooms
They meant more to me
Than any, than any living thing on earth

instead i am short curvy jewish and brown haired

skyeblue:

mysticalandshit:

comebacktothesea:boardwalks:astoryforsupper:thisorigami-dream:lenifucksalexhard:unicourtney:thewaterisrising:louischatburn:vacantheart:

Which was the best month for you? May-August

Which month(s) was the worst? January, February, May

What was the most significant thing that happened this year? My parents divorce, my sexual assault

What person had the most impact on your life this year? My english teacher

What was the best concert that you attended? didn’t attend any

What was your biggest challenge of 2009? change.

Your biggest regret? Not saying no

What moments stand out to you the most? May 1st, May 22nd, June 1st, that day with the flower crowns, drunken nights, teenage moments.

What band did you listen to the most? Elliot Smith, Laura Marling, Bon Iver, Blind pilot, idk so many

On a scale of 1-10, 2009 was: A six or a seven. It was such a roller coaster I can’t even tell you.

Did you:

Meet anyone special? Yes.

Get close to someone you didn’t expect to? I did.

Have a boyfriend or girlfriend? No.

Have a relationship for more than 3 months? No.

Hook up with anyone, no strings attached? yep. 5 times.

Experience the death of a loved one? No.

Get in a fight? Yeah.

Lose a friend? Maybe, I hope not.

Regret doing something? yes.

Go to a concert? nope.

Get back together with an ex? Nope.

Enjoy being single? For the most part, mhm.

Accomplish a goal? Yes.

Learn something new? Many things.

Get arrested? No.

Break up with someone? naahh

Get a tattoo? Nope.

Go to a party? Yesssss

The New Year: 2010

What will you be doing on New Year’s Eve: with family ugh

Will you kiss anyone at midnight? i wish

What is your New Year’s resolution? dont have any

Did you keep your resolution from last year? nopppe

Do you think things will be different in 2010? Of course. Maybe I don’t know. Change scares me.

What do you want most out of 2010? Happiness.

Do you think 2010 will be better than 2009? It better be.

Anything you are particularly looking forward to? Just… makin’ memories I suppose.

suicideunderground:

spiderlashes:

Her skin is white cloth,
and she’s all sewn apart
and she has many colored pins
sticking out of her heart.

She has many different zombies
who are deeply in her trance.
She even has a zombie
who was originally from France.

But she knows she has a curse on her,
a curse she cannot win.
For if someone gets
too close to her,

the pins stick farther in.

- Tim Burton

alaskalee:

ifoneweresoinclined:

pagesofmymind:

jellyannrose:

jayroy:

barabadcj:

claudular:

bschh:

it was the first day of school, and i was getting ready to get on the bus, so naturally i was like

. so i was doin’ my thang, and eating a banana as i got on. then i saw the driver and he was all like

so i was like

and he was like

so i was like

. i wasn’t allowed to eat the banana.
~~~~~~~~~ 1 hour later ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
i finnally got to school and was like

and i walked into my classroom and the teacher was like

so i was like

and then i went to my first class. it was music class. the teacher was like

and i was like

then that class was over and i went to english. i was like

but the teacher still gave alot of homework. the girl next to me was like

but the teacher was like

then i went to spanish and the teacher was like

and i got in trouble for some reason so i had to go the principal’s office so i was like

when i got the office, the principal and nurse were like

and i was like

but then they stopped and the principal was like

so i was like

and she was like OKAY,

then the day went by and the school was out. all the kids were like

and like

but i just got on the bus and the driver was still like

~~~~~~~~ the end ~~~~~~~~~~~

OMG THIS HAHAHAHAHHAA.

HAHAOHGOD

what the flying fuck hahaha

suicideunderground:

dreamandwake:

Susanna: “Borderline Personality Disorder. An instability of self-image, relationships and mood… uncertain about goals, impulsive in activities that are self-damaging, such as casual sex.”
Lisa: I like that.

(Girl Interrupted)

suicideunderground:

volatilestructure:(via fallingliketherain)

nostalgicdreams:

vikingdiscoinfernodance:mypeterpancomplex: (via frogsandcrowns)

with bbm i can tell they’ve read my texts and are ignoring me.

alaskalee:

xdarkling:decomposition:alexcetera:hotncoldfuture:

Seeing as the year is ending I find it only appropriate to complete this survey.

Which was the best month for you? May-August probably
Which month(s) was the worst? January-May 
What was the most significant thing that happened this year? parents divorce, other more personal crap…everything 
What person had the most impact on your life this year? Negative: my mother Positive: my english teacher
What was the best concert that you attended? didn’t go to any..
What was your biggest challenge of 2009? The World
Your biggest regret? that I didn’t say no
What moment stands out to you the most? there are so many of them but probably that stairwell on May 1st just because it changed everything for me. or maybe 6th period feburary 25th…
What band did you listen to the most? Simon & Garfunkel, Almost Famous soundtrack, Elliot Smith, Blind Pilot, so many more…
On a scale of 1-10, 2009 was: Really fucking bad.

Did you:

Meet anyone special? yeah, sure. 
Get close to someone you didn’t expect to? yep. 
Have a boyfriend or girlfriend? nope. 
Have a relationship for more than 3 months? naah
Hook up with anyone, no strings attached? 6 times
Experience the death of a loved one? No.
Get in a fight? Yeah.
Lose a friend? Maybe…I don’t know yet
Get drunk? YEAH.
Regret doing something? yep. 
Go to a concert? no. 
Fall in love? No.
Fall out of love? in a way 
Get back together with an ex? No.
Enjoy being single? I guess..
Accomplish a goal? i dont know not really 
Learn something new? Yeah.
Get arrested? almost, i’m sure 
Break up with someone? not yet 
Get a tattoo? noope 
Go to a party? too many. 

The New Year: 2010

What will you be doing on New Year’s Eve: with family=/
Will you kiss anyone at midnight? nope
Who do you WANT to kiss at midnight? John Kraskinski hahaha or um I don’t know…John…maybe Jake 
What is your New Year’s resolution? Lose weight, do better in school
Did you keep your resolution from last year? I didn’t make any.
Do you think things will be different in 2010? I don’t really think so, but it can’t be worse than this year.
What do you want most out of 2010? Happiness
Do you think 2010 will be better than 2009? No. 
Anything you are particularly looking forward to? Now that I think about it, not really.

ghostparties:

(via frogsandcrowns)

i hate when i have an overwhelming day and just burst into tears in front of everyone. it’s like when they ask wrong i don’t even know what to say because it’s literally everything, and then something was the straw that broke the camel’s back and.. ugh